Side Story: Monsters.A dream so vivid that one might mistake it for reality, even if that reality belonged to someone else.
There was a sharp jolt in his chest. It was a dream but he felt this, and that was real enough. Just like the figure with the mask , turning up in every dream he’d had for weeks, of not months. Except normally she was just a shadow, someone standing in the background. Here she took centre stage. Red floated from the open wound on his body, like he was suspended in water, as the masked apparition looked on. What was it feeling, thinking? He wanted to understand, but the mask hid everything from him. He ignored his injury, lifting his hands close to the obscured face
if I could just pull it away, I could understand; The mask never got any closer, always out of his reach.
But something pulled him forward, compelled him to learn. Sensing this curiosity for the truth, the woman stepped away even as he floated there in some sort of twisted pain. Except after a moment’s pause, she lifted her own hand to draw the mask upwards. Whatever the face behind it looked like, he never got the chance to find out, before the figure was swallowed up by the blackness of her own cloak, and the dream changed...
Emptiness. Isolation. Tamar was locked in a cage, alone, with nothing to do but wait to be told what to do. Here his thoughts were the only freedom he had .Was this his memory, or .... no. None of this was his; these were the thoughts of another, the emotions of another. This was not his cage, and as such it could not hold him. He slipped through its bars easily, and followed the shape of the figures cloak, vanishing into the darkness just ahead of him.
But the terrain was difficult; there were memories here: decisions to large in scope to examine, too wrapped up in broken, damaged emotions to understand. Only as he grew closer to the end did things become clearer.
Asha and Luca, together. They wanted to change the world and this castle held the key to that. But they needed more than that. They needed something to fuel the magic they were crafting. They needed anger and rage and the fury of people desperate for answers. So they had started the war, and her power was used to fuel it. The damage done to the people here were inconsequential, their lives did not matter, all that was important was the power and the influence they spread. They fought, they killed, but most of all, they
manipulated. Hector received his punishment for the wrongs he had committed against them, Julius and Anji were tricked into giving them all the information they needed, and Legias played the hero just the way they had hoped.
These people did not matter. They were a means to an end. That was what Tamar was continuously reminded of in this empty world, The mantra was fed down into his thoughts and it disgusted him every moment he had to endure it. T
And the girl...[/i[ a voice that was not his own thought. She too was of no importance
...Except she was important, wasn’t she? The shape of her hung before him, all wrapped up in a jumble of feelings. Why was she so familiar ? Her face was obscured, distant, but then the air around her grew bright with the crooked light of fireflies, and Tamar knew immediately who it was. Of course, how could he not recognize her? [i]”Zi.” The world began to crumble around him. There she was ,ahead of him, held by Asha and Luca. Meaningless. A tool to be manipulated. They would hurt her, they would use her, and they would kill her when they were done. He charged at them, reaching out to help her, but his wound returned to him and stopped him dead in his tracks. There was a scream of pain, perhaps Zi’s, and then the world shattered into nothing.
Tamar yelped and jumped up from the bed his brow dripping with cold sweat. while he slowly remembered
breathing. Yes. Breathing was a thing that people had to do on a fairly regular basis. He sat and waited for the dream to fade, for the memories to flitter away ,the way they always did... Except they didn’t.
Slowly his mind began to process exactly what he had just experienced. He knew better than to assume it was just a dream this time. Asha and Luca had Zi; he was not sure how he knew… this, but he
knew. It was like a trail of breadcrumbs. The more he focused on the images in his head, he more he understood. It was like a flood of memories were pouring in as he sat there but above it all ,one thing stayed at the forefront of his mind, “I need to save her…”
The sounds of battle echoed in the background of the early morning sky. It always did these days. The city never seemed to sleep. Tamar gathered his equipment quickly, drawing Echo to his side. Then he paused for a moment, however, as he looked over some of Hectors equipment that laid about. His hand lowered to the boomerang amongst the pile. Not a weapon he was completely experienced in, but Hector had given him a few chances to practice with it.
It was better than nothing.
*
By now, Tamar knew the back streets of town better than he knew the main roads, and he made his way back to the Inn without incident
The Inn had burned a few nights ago; the backyards where they used to train were scorched, and the tree where Anjali had been caught napping was a charred cinder, still smoking even days later.
Tamar took a deep breath. Up until that point, he had considered at least trying to seek out other members of Storm and Drive, but the sight of their old home in cinders was a wakeup call. Storm and Drive, what remained of it, were scattered. He had no way of knowing where they were, and looking for them, or anyone else, would only waste time that Eliziya couldn’t afford. He only paused to look at the burned out shell of the Inn for a moment, not daring to stick around any longer. The rats would smell the blood. Anyway, this wasn’t the right place.
It
had been, though, at some point. He could see them, like ghosts around the burned out shell of the Inn.
Luca. The anti guild. He saw the Inn as it had been several nights ago when the anti faction set it alight. He saw the poor innkeeper who had been so kind to them, struggling in the grasp of two men much larger and younger than himself. Luca had stood there too, watching... But all this had happened days ago. Now it was just a memory.The memory flickered and died and Tamar took another breath to steady himself. As soon as this memory faded the others rushed in to take it’s place. It was giving him a headache.
Whatever he was seeing, they were memories of Luca. They showed the places Luca had visited, over the last however many week. All Tamar had to do was use that memory to trace Luca’s steps from then to now. The trouble was focussing. There was so much bubbling over in his head, it was almost impossible to tell where one memory ended and another began. “
Okay... okay, Tamar, think. Don’t mess up your breathing.”
He started walking again. From the blaze of the inn, he moved to the town square, and then to the Blacksmiths. He followed wherever the images led, not caring that he was running around in broad daylight. Finding Eliziya was a pinpoint of focus in his mind, blinding him to everything else. He forgot about the blood that had stained his tunic black, and about the warnings Hector had given him about wandering about alone.
Thoughts that weren’t his own fought for position as he traversed town, journeying to each place the intrusive new memories showed him. Whoever’s memories these were, they had been everywhere in town, and their thought overlapped again and again, to create a confusing jumble he had to sort through in his head. He had to make sense of them, to find a pattern...
When he reached the ruins of the blacksmith, the memories focussed onto something Tamar recognized. He looked at the blacksmith’s yard, or rather, what was left of it: a blackened wreck of burned timbers. But Tamar could see it as it had been weeks ago- with Tad yelling in the doorway. He watched as a young woman sent an arrow flying into the shoulder of an anti-guild grunt.
“...Jenny?” “Not really a plan, but... magic makes people crazy, and that makes them erratic. It’s the same with, say, rabid animals; you can’t tell what they want, because they don’t know what they want. A violent, rational person is easier to deal with than a violent, irrational one. I’m sorry, I don’t think I got your name.”Suddenly, Tamar understood what this memory was.He was seeing himself, or rather an echo of himself, standing where he and Jenny had been, trying to defend Tad’s blacksmith from the anti guild factions weeks ago.
They had been here...The owner of these memories. They had stood and watched the whole thing.
Tamar felt a shiver at this realisation, but squashed it down, forcing himself to push through that memory and focus on where it took him. Past the square, out towards the edge of town... It was disturbing, yes, but also useful. Until now, the memories had been a confusing mess, but now he knew which ones to focus on. He just had to pick out the ones with people he recognized, focus on them. So he moved throughout town, watching and waiting for the next memory to spark something. Tamar grimaced in frustration, hand tightening on the boomerang. He didn’t feel any closer to figuring out where he had to go. But if they’d been watching him, then they had certainly been watching...
Hector. The Guard tower. Tamar knew it on sight. The place where this whole civil war panic had begun. And this time the memory came along with a gut churning horror and the screams of the angry mob. Burning rage and spilled blood. He could see the shock of red in the crowd that was Anjali, the glitter of Julius’s sword, fighting in desperation against people they didn’t want to kill, trying to get Hector out of there before--
Tamar nearly buckled right there, guilt and horror and anger hitting him like a fist. For the first time, the shuttered blinkers that kept him angry and focussed cracked enough that he remembered there were other things at stake, other people who were going to be hurt if this didn’t end right now. Luca had caused it. Luca had spread it. Everyone and everything was a tool, an instrument to be played, even Julius and Anjali in that ugly crowd.
The images led, and Tamar followed.
*
Hector walked as carefully as he had ever been known to do anything down the streets of the city as he made his return to the hideout Tamar and he had been using. It was not in Hector’s nature to sneak, but in this instance staying hidden was the only real advantage the two of them had at the moment, and if Olivia had taught him anything it was to use these advantages when they were needed most.
It was hard to tell what state the city was in to Hector, whether it was improving, getting worse, or staying the same. What he did know was that Luca and Asha were still fueling the fires of this war, and he had a responsibility to stop them.
The abandoned house was quieter than it normally was when the man finally entered it. Usually Tamar would come running out to badger him about injuries or to at least ask what was going on out there. A part of him wondered why badgers were used for that term...they never particularly bothered him.
“Tamar?” The swordsman called, looking around the place with his good eye. It was not a long search for him to realize that the boy was not there, “Damn it, why did he leave...” Hector wondered. Ever since that mission he went on with Salvantas, Tamar had been a lot more cautious about leaving the building, focusing more on his training instead. It didn’t make sense for him to just up and leave for no reason. Hector stopped in his tracks when he looked over to where he kept some of his spare equipment, and noticed that much of it had been rummaged through. The place was a mess and clearly left in a hurry. “...He took Emer.” He grunted, somewhat irritated, but the mere fact of it was disturbing. It was clear the boy left with the intent to fight, why else take more than Echo?
It was not like Tamar to do something reckless, but Hector did not need to think about. His friend was out in danger and he was not, simple as that. “... Come on Zorica,” He said with a wry grin as he lifted the axe up from the table.
*
Under the burning anger that had become strangely comfortable over the last hour, Tamar’s mind was working. He appeared more than once in these memories. Hector, Eliziya, Himself. Their faces leapt forward from the memory crowd, and Tamar focussed on them, pushing others aside.
Wherever these memories were coming from, their owner had been watching almost everyone who could be said to be associated with a guild. The question was where were they watching from? The images came from places nobody could possibly be standing. So how were they getting around the town unseen?
‘Tunnels, maybe,’ Tamar thought.
‘Like Likovya said. There are hidden places. That was when he saw Eliziya. For a moment, she seemed to be truly there, before flickering. It was just another of the memories, but this one had been so clear, it had to have been quite recent. There was a hand on her arm, rough and strong, and her eyes were covered.
The rage leapt into his throat like a cold hand and Tamar practically bolted after the illusion, into the dark streets towards the edge of town, only to turn into...
A completely empty alleyway.
Everything about it screamed ‘dead end’. It wasn’t. The walls towered around seemingly empty buildings. They weren’t. Tamar could have guessed this, even if it weren’t for the memories fighting for purchase in his mind. He walked briskly to the end of the alleyway and tapped at the bricks with the boomerang.
The fifth brick sank beneath his fingertip. In his mind, Luca’s fingers curled around the same brick opening this very doorway only minutes ago. An entire section of the wall jolted, and sank inwards, as if somebody were opening a stone curtain. The corridor beyond was pitch black, even when he lit the blade of Echo and held him into the darkness. The smell was the thing that game it away: the smell of something ancient and untouched by sunlight.
The Underground. They had been hiding in the Underground. Of course. Tamar felt a brief glimmer of fear, before the shape of Eliziya took it’s place, yelling as she vanished into the darkness, turning the fear back into anger.
“I’ll find you, Zi. Don’t worry. I’ll find you.” The boy walked through the almost pitch darkness, passing through several small adjoining rooms. The floor at his feet crunched, and shards of glass littered the entire area. The memories showed that at one time this room had been filled with mirrors, shattered one by one as some sort of scare tactic against... Anji? Yes, that was definitely Anji, looking strangely frightened as the glass around her shattered, one mirror at a time.
Tamar ran right through the faded memories, losing his patience as to the significance of them. For some time the paths continued to twist and turn, with no end in sight, until finally Tamar rounded a corner and heard the echo of footsteps that were not his own. Ahead of him, walking further into the underground corridors, was the man who had started all of this.
Tamar wasn’t sure what exactly he had expected. Rage, perhaps, at even a glimpse of the man who had taken Eliziya, nearly murdered his friend, and torn the guilds asunder. But maybe his anger had become too constant a thing now for Tamar to notice a change in it. So he followed in silence, extinguishing the light of Echo’s blade so as not to be noticed.
The corridor twisted and turned, an underground maze designed to bewilder, but seeing as Tamar had recently explored a building where Up would frequently become Down without issuing a warning first, it wasn’t so difficult. He found his way by touch, and by the echo of memories in which there had still been light, trusting his ears to tell him that Luca was ahead of him. He had no idea how Luca was finding his way in this darkness. Perhaps he’d just memorized the corridor? The darkness was cool and claustrophobic, but eventually, Tamar reached out a hand and couldn’t find another wall. They had stepped out of the corridors into an open space, still dark. At least at first.
A shove came from behind, pushing him forward, and Tamar scrambled back, drawing Echo to illuminate the area. Of course, he already knew what he would see: An unamused Luca staring at him with a dull expression. He had circled behind Tamar easily in the dark.
The man sighed, not mincing words , he proclaimed loudly: “And how the hell did you find this passage, Delaney?”
Tamar held his ground; the light of Echo wasn’t as bright as he felt it should be, flickering red rather than it’s usual gaseous blue, but he didn’t break gaze, even as he reached out slowly to the boomerang slipped into the holster on the other side of his belt. He managed to keep his voice even as he spoke. “You might say it found me.”
Luca’s head tilted, a bemused expression on his face. “Is that so? I have to admit, never thought I’d see you away from Jade’s leash. Rather reckless of you, isn’t it?” He examined the kid’s expression, a sly grin crawling onto his face. There was a spark as Luca struct a flint and lit something which turned out to be a sconce. “Then again, you can only work with what you’re given, right? And Jade never was skilled at forward planning. No, there was only one thing he was ever really good at, wasn’t there? And now he won’t even do that.”
“E-enough. We’ve had enough of this, Luca. Where’s Eliziya?”
“Eliziya…” Luca repeated as he moved to the next sconce, lighting it absentmindedly. “The name sounds familiar...” He chuckled, lighting another. “Hmm, yes I believe I have heard of the name. The daughter your guild leader stole away from some rich family, right? Made quite a stir in town when they learned about it. But what makes you think
I know where she is?”
Tamar swallowed, knowing that the explanation wouldn't make any sense. Then again, what did he care if the Crimson Hound thought he was crazy? “I saw it. I know she’s here, Luca, so you can stop playing mind games. Let. Her. Go.”
Luca’s grin faded into annoyance. “You were there…?” He muttered, seemingly to himself . “... Let her go? And give her to who? You? I would not trust her in the hands of the Devil’s successor.” The man’s face turned serious as he finished lighting the last sconce., having circled Tamar entirely “You should know that by now. We didn’t take her she came to us, and we’re the best protection she has now. She’s got nowhere to return to, anyway.”
Tamar opened his mouth to argue, but the remnants of memories were tugging at his mind. They had clung on, even while the others faded, seemingly because of who they contained. He saw Eliziya smiling as she clutched something in her hands, something shining green, and that... didn’t fit. It didn’t fuel the anger the same way the thought of her crying out in terror had. He stepped back, trying once again to ignite Echo’s blade, but it was like trying to light damp kindling.The fire had gone, and something dark and cold was growing in it’s place, tingling in his fingertips like the early stages of frostbite. Tamar couldn’t explain it, nor did he care.
“You have that sword drawn like you’re ready to use it,” Luca commented, “Is that a part of Jade’s code now? You’re certainly not defending anybody at the moment.
Zi is safe.” Luca argued, oddly referring to the girl by her nickname. “Or did you come here with a different intention?” The man nodded his head, “Yes, that’s it, I can see it, it’s there. There’s no intention to defend, just the opposite.”
“Some talk coming from you,” Tamar gave up on trying to ignite Echo, whatever was wrong with him, now really wasn’t the time. “How many people have you killed so far? Or are they even people to you? Means to an end, right? That’s what I heard.” And any other time, there might have been curiosity under the anger: the urge to ask ‘but to
what end?’ but not now.
“Exactly my point.” Luca explained with a wry grin. “I’ve done so much. Why would you try to give me the chance to escape, or have some higher body pass judgement on me? You’re the people I wronged, so why shouldn’t you be allowed to make things right yourselves?” Luca rested his hand upon the sheathed katana at his side. “Come now, I’m right here.”
‘It won’t be that easy. yelled the rational part of Tamar’s brain; the part he’d been ignoring so steadfastly all the way here, and that was enough to make him hesitate. i He had no doubt that Luca was far more skilled than he was, and even if he attacked Luca now and by some miracle won, he’d lose any chance he had of finding Zi.
“The truth of that matter is, that line of thinking is fading away in society. The actions of the individual can no longer be their own. The age of the warriors is falling apart, replaced by an age of pawns.” Luca said. “Can’t you see how little sense it makes? I killed dozens of the city guard, but Jade would have you spare me. I orchestrated an entire war and he would ask you to find the good in me. I destroyed this city, your guild, your friends. But my life is just as precious as theirs were, if he means what he says.”
“And killing you is going to bring them back?” Tamar snapped. Because if that were the case, wouldn’t Hector have done so already? Wouldn’t that have balanced everything out?
“You’re just wasting your time, Delaney, or maybe I’m the one wasting my time on you,” Luca sighed seeming thoroughly bored by this exchange. “Zi would be in far more danger with you and the man this city despises, than with Asha and I.”
“You kidnapped her!” Tamar could barely understand what he was hearing, and what he did understand, he didn’t believe.
“Yes, well... It’s unfortunate how things turned out, but at least she’ll get to see the world become what it should be. It’s not as if she’ll find that opportunity with Anjali, not anymore.”
Anjali. of course. Tamar had forgotten. If only there had been time to find her, or Julius before the memories faded... “Y-you think you can stop her?” he almost laughed. “I'm finding Eliziya. I’m taking her back. And if you kill me in the attempt when someone else will come. You won’t get away. You think you can keep Anjali from getting to her sister? There’s more than one member of Storm and Drive in this city!”
“Really? You see, by my count there’s only two now, counting you.” Luca countered, his voice deathly serious.
Tamar hesitated, and Luca, who had apparently been waiting to gauge his reaction, frowned slightly. “Delaney... You really don’t know what’s going on do you? Why do you think Zi came to us, why do you think
everyone within your guild has broken contact?”
There were answers to that question. Several possible answers, in fact, the most obvious of which was
“Luca is a saints begotten liar who will say anything to save his own skin”,. And yet... it didn’t make any sense. Zi went to them? Zi wouldn’t have done that willingly, she wouldn’t have betrayed them like that... and yet in the remnants of memory, Tamar could still see her smiling that small, beatific smile, a contentment in Zi’s eyes that Tamar had never seen before.
“Thank you Ma. I’ll treasure it, I promise." “Perhaps,” Luca’s voice broke through the ice that was slowly making it’s way up Tamar’s spine, “It’s because there’s noone left to contact.”
“What do you--”
“Oh for goodness sake,” Luca sighed. “You know, I figured that at the very least you had more
brains than the Jade Devil. Maybe they’re already
dead. Or haven’t you had time to check the notice boards recently?” his eyes flickered briefly to Tamars shirt. “Too busy getting yourself into trouble to realise your leaders had been killed?”
The ice that had been ascending tamar’s spine made an immediate beeline for his heart, and Luca certainly knew how to seize the moment.
There was a flash of movement between the two as Tamar’s sword clashed with Ba’al. Anger seethed in Tamar’s eyes as Luca looked on with his malicious grin, “blocking every strike with an easy parry. “This is what listening to Jade gets you, Delaney. The people you care about die and you’re the one left to pick up the pieces! You act like you’re better than me, like you have some sort of higher ground, but just like me, you’ll take the life of those who wrong you, just as it should be! The truth is we’re all killers in the end, we’ve just tried to suppress it .”
“They died because of you!” Tamar yelled, ignoring the man’s words as he charged again, swinging violently. Any illusion of fire had gone now, and he could feel a dull chill, like ice, crawling through the blade of the sword.
Ice.
Alright, that was... new, and any other time Tamar would probably be stopping to give said newness it’s due consideration but not today. Not with the memories flickering in his mind
a notice board, dozens of names, Anjali and Julius standing out in bolder ink, as if somebody had tried to make their deaths all the more obvious. To draw attention to Storm and Drive’s destruction. The sharp pain of it tore through him.
Luca back pedaled, dodging wild swings. “They died because they weren’t strong enough.”
“I’ll kill you!”
“If you can!” Luca laughed. The boy’s blade was blocked once more, and with mastered maneuverability, Luca slid his free arm to the Echo’s hilt and knocked the blade from the boy’s hand before delivering a kick to his chest to send him back to the ground. “... All of Hector’s words, all of Olivia’s, they never meant anything. You see it now, don’t you? How naive it all was? He hides behind those words, because he’s too afraid; because he tries so desperately to prove me wrong when he had already done
so much to prove me right.”
“Shut. Up.”
Luca shook his head, “you realise that won’t fix anything by following his path, don’t you, Tamar?”
“I said, shut up!”
The ice burned, and movement came before Tamar was even aware of it. Emer, in his hand, blue light glinting from it’s suddenly crystal surface. Not crystal, Tamar realise.
Ice. Ice blooming from his veins, spreading into the bone weapon in his hand. He should have felt cold, Tamar knew, with so much ice all around him, sinking deep into his flesh, but he wasn’t so much as trembling.
When he threw the boomerang, it’s edge had been made razor sharp by a coat of ice, and it struck hard and deep as a blade. Luca’s eyes went briefly wide, perhaps in shock that Tamar had even
dared, but Tamar felt nothing. Not even triumph. The ground at his feet was splintered with ice fragments, crawling across the cracks in the damp stone.
The warrior coughed as the weapon embedded itself in his stomach. Luca stumbled backward into the nearby wall, his free hand clutching the oozing wound. His eyes were still shocked and yet... oddly affirmed. He dragged his body backward, distancing himself further from Tamar. “See? N-not so hard, is it? We can all… play the good guy as much as we want…” He coughed up a bit of blood trying to speak, “but at some point we encounter problems that… only have one solution.”
Tamar’s breathing was audible, seething, even as the ice spread from his body across the floor, a spiders web of blue and white. In his mind there was a sharp, piercing laugh. A memory he couldn’t blame on this morning. A memory of a girl, with his eyes, and his face, and the joyous glint of murder in her eyes. A girl, who Tamar knew, would have sympathised very much with Luca and Asha.
”We’re all monsters in the end.” Tamar’s hand fell upon Echo one last time, grip tight enough to draw blood. Luca was a monster, he made no attempts to deny this. He had as good as murdered Anjali and Julius, and countless others before and after them. He would never have led him to Zi.
And if Tamar let him go, this would never end.
Luca, even while injured, still lifted his sword arm on the defensive. Tamar yelled in rage, a rage that was not birthed from any talisman or spell and certainly not from Echo. He ran forward, blade raised.
“Tamar!”
The disruption came from the darkness behind him; a strong hand grabbed ahold of his arm from behind and yanked him backward, but Echo was still moving, mid swing, and Tamar had no intention of stopping.
The sword came down, but not at Luca. Echo’s edge sank into metal plating with an ugly shriek. The block and the heavy armour the figure wore had stopped the blade before it could reach flesh, but it hadn’t stopped the magic coursing through the weapon. The ice spread, filigree webs of pain and cold lancing across everything Echo touched. Tamar could feel it spreading .
His heart was hammering, still pushing the blade downwards, willing it to hurt someone -anyone. The ice was crawling through the figure’s vambrace, and probably through the skin beneath, but he didn’t move, and Tamar followed the path of the crawling ice, realising there was only one person who could take a blow like that and not even flinch.
When he looked up, Hector was looking back at him.
The rage only abated for a split second. Tamar tried to snatch away and bypass him, but Hector was faster, even considering his arm had been on the way to freezing. His uninjured hand latched around Tamar’s wrist. “You’re not making this mistake.” He promised, holding him back with immense strength. Hector’s gaze, however, had turned upon Luca’, whose face was twisted in pain and anger. He stared right back. Understanding.
Knowing.
This was their chance, Luca was down and the two of them could overcome him easily. But there could be no breaking that code, no victory worth violating his promise to Olivia. Between helping Tamar, or defeating Luca, Hector chose his friend.
Luca began to back away into the shadows of the underground, his gaze never leaving Hector’s. So many words exchanged without either man speaking, a silent understanding that this was how it was, how things were always going to be, and that next time would be the last.
Tamar came back to himself with a burst of cold rage. “Let go! Hector, we have to stop him!”
“We will,” Hector tried to reassure, “but not this way.”
“They’re dead!” tamar yelled. “A-Anji and Julius are dead! He took Zi! I can still save her, please!” He pleaded, “...Don’t do this.”
Hector silently lowered his head, taking in what the boy was saying, knowing there was truth in it. . Luca had already vanished into the dark shadows beyond the corridor. “If that’s true then killing him will ensure we won't ever find her.”
“And in the meantime?” Tamar yelled. “How many more people is he going to kill? Have you seen it, Hector? The notice board? Anjali’s on it! Julius is on it!
We could’ve ended this!”
“Yes.” Hector answered, simply. And that... that was all wrong. Tamar had expected a denial. Some kind of argument. It wasn’t as if they hadn’t had this discussion in the past, but before now, he hadn’t been seeing the corpses of half his guild in his mind, and this was no longer a matter of theological debate.
In the Veil they didn’t care about notice boards, or obituaries. People disappeared, you made your assumptions about what had happened, and you carried on. If you were fortunate your family would care, but there was no sense in drawing attention to something so easily lost as a life that wasn't your own. He had forgotten that. Until the civil war; he had forgotten a world where people killed because it was simply what you did.
How could he have been so
stupid as to forget that? How many more members of the guild were going to die because of it?
Hector’s arm was still shot with threads of ice blue, like blood leaking from a metal wound, and Tamar realised what he’d done. Echo dropped to the ground, the ice retreating as the blade hit the stone floor, and the ice that had begun spreading up Tamar’s own arms in veins faded. The cold stayed behind though, lingering along with the knowledge that over half the people he’d ever felt it safe to care about were dead. He wasn’t trembling at all. That was wrong. People shivered when they got cold, it was natural...
“Have you seen the Notice Board?” he asked again, more quietly this time, voice still pitched with fury and pain.
“I couldn’t read it,” Hector sighed, “I’m sorry.”
Right. Of course. Something else Tamar shouldn’t have forgotten. It seemed as if the things he didn’t know could fill whole volumes.
Hector stepped over to Echo, picking him up off the ground and offering the weapon back to Tamar. “We need to go, it’s not safe in the underground.” He looked over at the boy, no differently than he ever had. “And we should tell the guards about these passages.”
He spoke like there was nothing different. As if he understood where the lines had been drawn, how everyone should and could feel about the situation. A small, furious spark in the back of Tamar’s brain told him to take the sword and leave. To ignore whatever Hector had said or was planning to say, because this couldn’t be fixed as easily as a broken sword.
He could still catch Luca. He wouldn’t get far in these corridors with a wound like that. Maybe the Jade Devil was dead, but how many more had gotten killed anyway in the time since simply due to his unwillingness to make the first blow? The thought was unfair, and Tamar knew it, but the part of his mind that was thinking this really didn’t
care anymore. The rest off him was slowly filling with a sick, icy horror. The spell had faded, but the magic of it seemed to have lingered, clinging to him, as if to show off.
“Look at what we can do.”.
Tamar stepped backwards. Away from Echo, and away from the hand holding the sword out towards him. He didn’t say a word.
‘... Still afraid of him?“ Hector asked, looking down upon Echo. “You’re getting stronger, so is Echo. How you use that power determines what you’ll be. We’re not weapons, we’re companions, just like Echo. A weapon cuts, it kills. But us? We can do so much more than that. If Olivia didn’t believe that, then I would not be able to show you that… I believe it too.”
A laugh bubbled up in Tamar’s throat, even though he could never have been standing anywhere less funny in his entire life. “It’s not the sword,” he said, looking up and meeting Hector’s eyes. “It was never the sword I was afraid of.”
And as of to prove his point, he took Echo back lightly ,returning it to his belt. The cold prickled up and down the blade. He knew he should’ve felt something. Anger, or pain or, confusion, but the truth was he didn’t feel much of anything anymore. He refused to meet Hector’s gaze again as he turned to leave the corridor from the direction he had come.
And then he was remembering the horrible pressure of a blade between his ribcage.
A dream so vivid that one might mistake it for reality, even if that reality belonged to someone else.
Once again He saw this dream, even as he walked away from Hector. The shattered world was still there, the bits of memories not his own floating, but something was off. He felt nothing this time, his own fury holding him back; for once he was just looking in from afar.
But there it all still was; the feelings of loneliness, emptiness, but most of all , disgust. “People are tools,” a “means to an end.” The disgust was still there, but i they were not Tamar’s feelings, they never were. What he had seen, what he had felt ,was a reflection. The cage was suspended there, and inside the masked woman sat. These memories, these feelings, they floated around her not Tamar.
The first time he hadn’t understood, but now there was more clarity. She had pulled away her mask for him; she was showing him the truth. These two had done terrible things and yet there was…disgust, regret, guilt. And then there was Zi, her arms around the robed figure, helping her out of the cage. Asha escaped its bars much like Tamar had, but only with the help of the young girl.
Asha. The wound was seeping from Tamar’s chest again, except just when it seemed like the blood would fill his vision a gloved hand closed upon the wound, and the bleeding stopped. The short sword was jerked away and there was the same, familiar burn he had felt when Eliziya healed the injuries on his palms, all those months ago in the hills above town. That was when Tamar remembered exactly what had happened the other night. Salvantas, the mad children, the sword between his ribs. He remembered that same masked visage looking down at him as it saved his life.The memories he had seen while travelling here.. they were all hers.
“A means to an end.” The words were like a mantra in Asha’s mind. Something she repeated to herself over and over, clinging to the words desperately, as justification, or as reassurance... her attempt to convince herself that this would be worth it in the end. Except she didn’t believe it. Not really.
And maybe now he was a means to an end as well. Tamar didn’t know what that end might be.
This flash of memory wasn’t like the others had been. It was just a sudden plunge into thoughts that weren’t his own, followed by a sharp yank out of them, again. Maybe it was Hector’s hand on his shoulder that broke the illusion, because suddenly Tamar was on his knees on a stone floor, the cold still burning in his veins, turning the whole world icy and Asha’s pain echoing all around him.
“Tamar,” Hector called to his friend. “It’s okay.”
This was probably, Tamar thought, the only time Hector had ever lied to him. Unless you counted the Jade Devil. He wanted to explain what exactly he had seen, but had no idea how. So he didn’t. Instead he reached over to grasp the back of the hand that was clutching his shoulder - a hand that was still, incidentally, laced with freezing cold blue where Tamar’s sword had struck him. Tamar tried to focus on that rather than on Zi, or Anjali, or Julius, or the fact that he had very nearly murdered someone.
“We’re not giving up,” Hector promised, and that, at least, was almost certainly true.
Tamar still wasn’t shivering.
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