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So yeah this thread is one of those things Xana makes at like 2 p.m. because boredom and people seem to think it is a good idea despite being stupid. So the subject basically says it all, start it like this. Also if this turns out to have been a horrible mistep then I will have it deleted or some such when I am not half asleep.

I am Lordxana. You could call me a bit crazy... a lot crazy... okay there might be a limit of crazy and I went over the limit a long time ago. I enjoy cheesy romantic things for the hell of it and am possibly the worlds most annoying shipper. I also come up with these little ideas that people seem to draw people in despite being a little dumb and sometimes not all that great. I am probably the luckiest guy on earth when it comes to friends. Both online and offline I have been given quite a few people whom are all great friends to me. I can be a bit... really annoying sometimes and they still put up with me, which is honestly pretty amazing.Other then writing I don't really have a great number of talents, I am pretty average across the board. But that is just me, and hey. That is how I see myself.

So that is how is works. Please don't discuss peoples views on this topic, they say something you feel like disagreeing with please do so somewhere else.

I am the Wild West Pyro, and I'm a nice guy/Cloudcuckoolander/Computer Addict/Troper/Fanfiction Writer/Bookworm/Gamer/Loner/Metaguard. I get angry easily but I'm rather sensitive. I'm quite religious and a Christian but I accept gays anyway. I read a lot, I draw, I game, and I write fanfiction in my spare time. I ship a lot, but only on Fanfiction. I've been praised, yelled at and told to calm down on the forum. I suppose, well, I'm one of the most insane Metaguards, if not the most insane. Behind my gas mask is a Badass Bookworm and a rather broken loner. I'm the guy who never logs out and stays keeping watch over the forum. Even though I'm not exactly that popular with the Metaguards, they're still my friends, I guess. I've got quite a lot of flaws, from being an attention whore to raging to being oversenstitive to being caught by the web. I like guns, however, I use tranquilizer darts because I know how awful killing is. I'm constantly terrified that I'll mess up and be kicked off the forum by Adell or another moderator. I don't have much friends because I'm shy and a wierdo. I feel rather alone and sad on the forum sometimes, because sometimes I feel, in their souls, deep down, my fellow Metaguards don't really like me or are scared or nervous when around me. But that's just my oversensitivity I guess....

Who am I? I perceive myself by how I act and how I look in the mirror.

To many, I am nothing but a Jester, a joke, a sham, an unfunny comedian. To them, I am an old man complaining about things he couldn't possibly understand.

To me however, I am practically perfection.

I am a paradox between a narcissist and a boy with self of steam issues. The paradox purveys itself in such a way that my personality is nearly indescribable yet obvious. Then again, that paradox is easily known, but denied by many. I am the philosopher, the knowledge carried on through the ages that I use for the betterment of society, however I use it as a form of anger and hate, and I portray it in a negative light to spread the wings of misery to everyone. Happiness eludes me, peoples happiness confounds me, and jealousy ravages me. I appreciate what I am given yet want more.

I am a man with unpopular opinions, opinions labeled forbidden and unwanted, more enemies I have made than friends and yet it bothers me none. I am ignorant of their criticism but open minded in their opinion. I am a conflict between the light and the dark and have an inability to choose a side. I am apathetic in every regard except human death or at least when it affects me the most. I am self centered and self conscious. I am negative and foreboding, but tolerant and forgiving.

Who am I? What does it matter. I am not a person that can be overlooked. I am not statistic to be shown. I am not a number to be called. I am an absolute, I am here and I exist, that cannot be denied. My existence is relative and all anybody can do about it, is deal with it.